<It's as though Something is trying to convince me it's/I'm
boring, perhaps out of that something's fear of being
challenged by an alliance that occurs during PW (?). For me a
Write often bears the marks of that whole struggle, I think.
I'm rarely "tapped in" from the beginning of a Write. The
notion of my mind as an ally could be a powerful counterforce.<

This is from Jean's message, and it has, to coin a phrase, grabbed my attention. That "Something" that tries essentially to maintain itself out of fear sounds like a good take on ego. Jean, can you say more? I can see how, if that something were strong, one's Write could "bear the marks" of the struggle. Of course, to transcend this ego character, you need to have one. Or, a la some spiritual liberation systems, we have to see the illusory nature of the ego and the castle of self it thinks it is defending. That must be the enlightenment moment or an enlightenment moment. I think this is the way Trungpa Rimpoche talked about such matters in Cutting Through Spiritual Materialism.

Why do you think the ego is fearful?